Sunday, November 29, 2009

Winter vacation!

We just returned from Beech Mountain. Lilly loved sledding and the seeing the snow. It was so cold though, and I am recovering from the Swine flu, but I went anyway and suffered through. We had been telling Lilly we were going for a few weeks and I just couldn't disappoint her. She had so much fun as you can tell. Now on to CHRISTMAS!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

We are so thankful....

I can not really find the words to express our gratitude for all the blessing that have been bestowed to us this year. Our God is so amazing. As I type Lilly is beside her self in anticipation for the meal at Nana's house. She is loving the holidays and all the Firsts. Thank you God for an amazing family, a great life, and health to enjoy it all. I am so thankful for my children. Its a beautiful life!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Six months ago..

Six months ago....I could sleep in when ever I felt like it, although I never wanted too.

Six months ago.....I was not excited to check the Gymboree website.

Six months ago...songs from Noggin were not stuck in my head like glue.

Six months ago...I wasn't putting socks on little feet.

Six months ago....I did not have a fear of stepping on a Barbie in the dark.

Six months ago.....I was not pouring over racks of clothes for the perfect Christmas dress.

Six months ago.....I had no one to read books too.

Six months ago....I had never been to China and witnessed the grace of God first hand.

Six months ago...I was a Mom to two.

Six months ago....I was missing all the joy you have brought into my life.

I am so thankful that I don't have to go back to six months ago....

Happy 6 months home Lilly Yin!

Friday, November 13, 2009

Dear Lilly,

My heart is full of things I want you to know....about my love for you and God's grace that brought you to us. You were planted in my heart by God, before I even knew who you were, what you looked like, or how it would all work out. I loved you before I knew you and I will always be grateful that we were blessed with the gift of you.

You were not born of my body as your older siblings were, but you were brought into our family with no less desire, joy, or purpose than they were. Adoption was not our second choice, and neither were you. It was only that we discovered the blessing of adoption later in life. We are so glad we did because it led us to you. We simply cannot imagine our lives without you.

As you get older, you may have some questions. I want you to know that it's OK....your dad and I are strong enough to handle them and we expect them. You will wonder about your birth family and why they let you go, and about your birth country and it's people. It's OK. We will love you through the questions and do our best to help you process the grief that accompanies adoption. We will hurt for your hurts and are already praying that God will heal those empty places in your heart where your questions linger.

We continue to be amazed at this incredible gift we have received. I pray we will be the parents you need us to be and you will always know of our love for you. There is nothing you could ever do to change that....nothing. We will never give up on you, leave you or turn our backs on you. You are ours forever

I love you,

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Six months ago today...I looked into these beautiful eyes for the first time...

What a difference six months makes! We love you Lilly Yin Dockery! Happy half a year home!